LOVE

My friend gave me something the other day that I will cherish forever. When I opened it , I just wept. I wept because it brought new perspective to me. I wept because it's true. I wept because it gave me comfort. It's a beautiful picture of Jesus holding a baby up in Heaven. It's Jesus holding my little Tuff up in Heaven. Oh man- writing about it gets me all teary eyed. This picture comforts me SO much- because I imagine that this is what's going on up there with my little one:

Words can't even describe this picture. Sometimes I just sit and stare at it. I can imagine how loving Jesus is. And not just to my little Tuff man- but to everyone. I wonder what it's like in Heaven sometimes. Unconditional love I'm sure. And that is all a person needs.

https://www.lds.org/ensign/2003/02/divine-love?lang=engDivine Love

What have I been up to lately?

Well, I've sent in about 30 resumes to dental offices and haven't heard back from a single one. Kind lame sauce. So...I work for Tanner now and I'm his boss. hahaha he loves it when I say that. (not.) This is what I've been up to lately:

Building a well house, taping, mudding, and texturing a basement, laughing at my hubby on stilts, singing loud to good music, and spending time with my best friend. Doesn't get much better than that. Luckily Tanner and I don't get sick of each other every day- haha. At least not yet :)

Fathers Day

Fathers Day. Kind of a touchy subject for me. Tanner is going to be such a good Dad. I watch him play with all our nieces and nephews and they all just adore him. He loves being around kids, and he's so good with them. I can't wait for the day when he gets to play with our own kidlets- he will get the best daddy award that's for sure :)

I'm so grateful for the 2 dads in my life. Just like my 2 moms- I got SO blessed. Blessed beyond belief. My own Dad- I don't even know where to start. He is the most caring man I have ever met. He will never hurt a soul- and is so committed to the gospel it's ridiculous :) haha. He has always looked out for me- and has always called me his "baby." He never hesitated teaching us kids the gospel and I'm so grateful for him! Love you Dad!

My dad-in-law is also an amazing man. He is also very committed to the gospel and would do anything for anybody. Such a good example to me. He has so many Christ-like attributes that I admire and want to have for myself. He never ceases to make me laugh- and has always been so kind to me. He also raised quite the son that I'm very grateful to have.

Dad's are an important part of my life and I'm so grateful for the sacrifices that my 2 dads make for our families, each and every day.

                                                          Love you two!

I am now a......

DENTAL ASSISTANT! took me about 10 months and I am loving it so far! Unfortunately the school I went through only certifies you as a dental assistant, not with expanded functions. So hopefully in August I will be going to EITC to get my expanded functions! My diploma came in the mail last week and I was EXCSTATIC!  

So far, I am working Saturdays at Dr. Strobels office, and am job searching for a full time position as well. So far, the journey has been very unsuccessful but I'm hoping something will happen here soon. I'm glad I chose this career path for myself- I LOVE it so far. Helping people all day, and seeing beautiful smiles all day is totally for me.

Lagoon!

Tanner and I made a last minute decision to go to Lagoon last weekend. We were toying with the idea of going or not because I don't have a job and we are a little tight on money- but we thought, heck the past months have been so rough, lets just get away for the weekend. So we did- and we are SO glad we did.  We went down with Tanners parents, and his little sis. We stayed with Tanner's brother Trent and had a good time visiting them.  We were able to visit the Logan Temple which I learned a fun fact about it. It took 103 years to build. Isn't that nuts?! Longer that the SLC temple! I had no idea.
We went to Lagoon on Monday and it was SO fun! except Tanner and I discovered we both get motion sickness pretty bad.  I think my favorite ride was Samurai- like always. :) Here's some pics of the weekend!

Camping!

Tan and I decided this year that we want to camping every other weekend, or as much as we can. We've already gone 3 times and it's been SO FUN! Our first camping of the summer we went with our friends Nick and Kenzie, and Brett and Megan to Beaver Dick. Here's some pics:

                                                    Our massive tent hahaha

                                                         Our camp set up.

                                                           My best friend.

                 Oh dear. our friends camper was like falling over. It cracked me up.

Ok so funny story. Tanner and I were woken up in the middle of the night by this little scurrying under our tent. You would've had to be there but it SCARED THE CRAP OUT OF US! Friday night we both were just laying there talking when all the sudden we hear noises. Tanner thought it was a skunk outside of our tent but I thought it was a mouse under our tent. So Tanner yelled out to Brett and being the nice friend that he is, he got out of his tent and walked around ours to see what it was. hahaha. He said there was nothing outside of our tent so we were good. Well- the scurrying was still going on and it was not going away. Tanner and I eventually fell asleep, woke up in the mornig and thought nothing of it. Well Saturday night comes and we are both just praying that the little creature wouldn't keep us up all night.  Sure enough, the scurrying was there once again. It got on my nerves so bad that I started hitting the tent with my shoe. I'd hit it, and it'd be silent for a while making me think I killed it. nope...of course once I'd calm down and getback in my tent it would come back. So....we were both so annoyed and just wanted this thing dead. So Tan would shine a light on the area where the creature was moving, and I'd slap it with my shoe. Well- it started playing games with us. once the light shone on it- it would competely stop moving. Once we turned the light off- it would go crazy! It was really starting to get on my nerves. Yes it was like 4 in the morning- and I'm slapping the heck out of our tent. hahaha. funny visual. After probably and hour of trying to kill this thing- we both kind of gave up- and just layed back down. Sure enough- the creature kept getting closer and closer to my head. I could hear it getting louder and louder and I freaked. I grabbed my shoe and slapped the tent as hard as I could. I really thought it was dead. Nope- minutes later it scurried so fast it RAN INTO OUR AIR MATTRESS. That about did it for me. I got up, woke tanner up, and we started the light shining process again. Long story short- we never killed it- it just kept me up all night long. We found out we set up our tent on a vole hill....hahahahaha.   So...the stupid vole kept me up all night long so I got up at 5 and went fishing. Here was my gorgeous view.

It was so peaceful and quiet. Too bad I didn't catch anything :( Anyway- that was a very eventful couple nights trying to kill the stupid vole!! Never again. haha.
Overall, we had a great time. We played vollyball, fished, dipped our feet in the river, talked, played games, roasted smores, had delicious meals, and just enjoyed each others company. On to more camping!!

The end of My Happy Days

After I lost my little Tuff Man- I made a mental decision in my head that I was not going to allow this bump in the road to consume me. It is amazing what an impact such a strong decision like that can make. I'm so grateful to myself for deciding that. Sounds weird- but I really am. Don't get me wrong- I have my days, but most days I try and look up and find the happy things in my life that I DO have. It's annoying when I have bad days, but I've realized that it's good to allow those days. If I didn't allow those days to happen, I don't think I would get through this how I need to. One thing that I've learned having gone through this is that grieving is a good thing. Crying is a good thing. Why? because your body needs to let loose those emotions that come. It's hard sometimes- and quite annoying- but I'm learning that it's good.  I don't know how long the grieving process lasts, but all I know is that it's a good thing Tanner is so understanding, and that my parents are in town, and that there's a temple close by. The first month after I lost Tuff, I went to the temple probably 10 times. It was the only way I could feel close to Tuff again- and feel him there. Not only his presence but the presence of my Heavenly Father. What a blessing the temple is.  I'm so grateful that we named our little boy Tuff. He has helped me get through this trial just because of his name. Whenever I feel like giving up, I think of him and somehow- he gets me through things.  I love you little buddy- thanks for helping me stay happy!

I saw this on facebook when I was really having a bad day. I absolutely LOVE it. and what an answer to prayer that day.

I know my babies will get to me. Not sure when, but I know God is watching out for me and has a plan for me. 

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